53 years ago, early in her career, Joni Mitchell recorded this song.
It’s not something most people will want to listen to often. Shortly after that, she became the one and only Joni Mitchell. But first, she had dues to pay.
That’s the work of practice and discernment and skill. You’re not born with genius, it’s a skill.
You might have to sing more than one song like this before you end up with the art that resonates with your audience.